I set my sights on someone. Sometimes a guy, sometimes a group of girlfriends. Then I get to know them, I try to make them happy, try to make them laugh. Try to show them how valuable and worthwhile I am. I'm trying too hard from the very beginning, things go from 0-100 so quickly and before too long I'm lacking in the validation and reciprocation that I feel the relationship requires. They're not going at my speed and I simply don't understand theirs. I'm just over-eager and desperate for love and attention so while I wait for them to care, I feel like I'm doing all the work and being punished for it. So we grow apart, my heart is removed from the table and cradled back inside myself and I continue the search for somebody to love.
But how do I break the cycle?
